I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed lately. As a young teen, when I left Christianity I left my interactions with Male Powers behind. I am not proud of it but I treated Them about as well as I treated mortal males during those years. I was struggling with the masculine parts of myself mightily at the time. Still do but that’s another blog post in and of itself. My fear of my own non-binary nature along with a giant bag of baggage from Christianity kept me from connecting with Them. It could have just been part of my journey I suppose, immerse myself in the gender I was assigned at birth(female), now it’s time to explore the others options.

It took a couple years for Himself to reassure me enough to let Him in. Since I’ve let Him it’s been a bit of a snowball effect. I’ve now had direct contact with five Gods in the last few months, including Himself. Odin is my Father in Heaven, Hermes is my Beloved Husband, Ares is a dear Friend, Loki is…well Loki. Then there is Poseidon. I’m pretty sure I’ve already written a bit about His amorous intentions. My Fibromyalgia is acting up really bad today so I has the dumb and not the brain power to look it up right now. When I asked the Menfolk why they were here, this song was my answer.

Which when you read the lyrics and such is really very funny and fitting with my feeling of entering a “Brave New World” (maybe I should read the book again?).

Hermes spoke with me yesterday about Poseidon, reassuring me that He is not upset about my feelings for Poseidon or for any interactions with Him. Himself reminded me that monogamy is really a “modern” human construct. He told me that He “sent” Poseidon to me because I need Someone else with me when He is away. It wasn’t like an arranged relationship or anything. It’s kinda like He gave His blessings I suppose? Kinda like when He asked Hekate to come help me with my visions and such.

Poseidon and I have been “talking” most of the morning. He talks in songs. Which is awesome. Hermes does too but Poseidon seems to speak more in waves of emotion and music, the rumbles of tremors and earthquakes and horse hooves. He played this song for me today in regards to our relationship, He had eluded to an idea like this when He told me to look up information on Amphitrite.

Now what He wanted me to pay particular attention to was this part…

“When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide
Don’t get too close
It’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide
It’s where my demons hide

They say it’s what you make
I say it’s up to fate
It’s woven in my soul
I need to let you go

Your eyes, they shine so bright
I wanna save that light
I can’t escape this now
Unless you show me how”

Unless you show Me how. The idea of being a Mortal that needs to Guide a God is scaring the shit out of me right now. I can’t stay way though. It’s time to jump in the deep end.

10 thoughts on “Guiding Gods

  1. This was inspiring. Youve got a lot going on and its exciting to see all the gods so active withnus wee mortals. I saw a guy on the sidewalk yesterday who could have been a human version of Hermes. Winged hat, tight black pants and shoes that look like they could fly the way he was standing. He peeked at me as I went by. Ive always been fascinated with Poseidon. Ive had a lot of ocean spirit dreams and interactions with Them. Im fortunate enough to live only 80 miles from the pacific ocean now and plan to go there often. Its always so peaceful there and I can feel Them. Ive had dreams about swimming with and even curled up with my head on a selkie’s back as we all s,ept on a rock on the oceans edge. Recently I dreamed of mermaids.

    1. Thank you so much!
      Hermes is King of sneaky looks and peeks, I swear. It’s adorable.
      So glad you are closer to the Pacific! I’ve lived in a half hour to one hour drive from it my whole life. Sitting on the beach is one of my favourite things to do. I’m terrified of actually swimming in open water but I can’t stay away from it either, hehe!
      My dreams were hard or impossible to recall for a couple months. It’s slowly coming back though.

      1. You’re wise to be cautious about the ocean. When I was 16 and braver than I am now, I made the mistake of trying to swim in it at night in December in California. I’m a good swimmer but I got caught in a riptide and it was so dark I couldn’t see where I was, which made me panic more. The water pulled me back and I thought I was literally going to die. But then it pushed me forward on the next wave and I clawed at the sand until I was on the beach again. I was alone and separated from my youth group and the counselor came walking up right then. I’m glad he wasn’t walking up to a dead body, and I learned my lesson not to be so reckless.

  2. Oh, this is interesting.
    I also associate both of these Imagine Dragons songs (‘Radioactive’ and ‘Demons’) with my work with Gods Loki and Dionysus.

    I am delighted to read of others who have similar associations. ❤

  3. It seems to me that Himself is getting you settled in with the Greek Family before He goes off on His business trips once again.

    I’m looking forward to seeing what happens with Poseidon 😉

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