I can hear the ocean outside my window though I don’t live nearly close enough to hear it so clearly. It’s a bit unsettling.
So I had planned my marriage rite to Poseidon for this Saturday. It’s the day after Beltain so I thought that was fitting. I was going to go down to the beach where I had spent so much of my youth and have a fire and offerings and possibly a dip in the ocean. It would take me a couple hours on transit to get to the beach which was going to be rough, especially with my arthritis flaring. I figured the sacrifice of time/energy would be fitting.
As is usual time and dates completely slipped my mind and all of a sudden the second is the day after tomorrow. Outside of contacting a dear friend to accompany me to the beach and figuring out a few minor details I have nothing planned. Saturday is usually family day, I haven’t even mentioned to my mortal spouse that I wanted to day to myself. Now I have to work also so going to the beach is entirely out of the question.
Coincidentally enough the dogs I walk on Saturday are down by the Coquitlam River. This is the river I was spending so much time at last Summer/Fall and it is also the place where I met Poseidon. Up until I started spending so much time walking along the river I had no name for the Presence that had been trying to get me to Listen. So maybe it’s a better place to marry Him. I feel unworthy because almost nothing I had planned will be possible. I can still slip the bottle of wine I’ve been saving for an offering into my work bag. A candle can be brought and lit by the waters. I can whisper my vows and prayers.
Maybe it’s not so unworthy after all.
My King is patient, considerably more patient then I expected. My interactions with the all things relating to the Other Side have ramped up into high gear lately. My “mundane” life has been very busy as well so I’m a bit overwhelmed at the moment. I need more time for both. I told Poseidon recently that I would accept His offer of Hospitality and stay at His home. I also told Him I would delve into this whole Queenship thing that He’s been dropping hints at. Who am I kidding He doesn’t exactly drop hints. I’ve dreamt twice in the last week or so of not being able to breathe. The first time I was on land, standing with someone and I slowly lost the ability to breath. I was BREATHING but no air was getting where it needed to be. The second time was just the other day and I don’t remember any other details beyond the feeling of breathing but getting no air and that it was dark. I have a hunch that He has been trying to show me around His Kingdom and my fear of water is getting in the way.I REALLY need some time to meditate for longer periods so I can push that fear back and actually go on some outings with Him. I find Him very kind and soft-spoken, which is not something I expected. His voice isn’t as deep as I expected it to be either. Way to go preconceived notions. I also told Him I would focus more on my studies as pertaining to Him, which I haven’t had the chance to do. I keep apologizing and He just keeps flashing His dazzling smile and reassuring me that it’s alright. After this weekend,which is Easter AND the 4th, I will have a bit more time to devote to Him. Poseidon has also mentioned an actual marriage and vows and such which is freaking me out a little.
*Easter is very important to my spouse’s family, I need to do some work looking at it from the Hermes/Jesus perspective and the 4th of every month is Hermes’s Day, I try to do something just for Him on the 4th.