My Lady

My Lady

I was feeling very heartbroken the other day. I’d realized after posting on a group that I was a devotee of An Morrigan that She is no longer with me in that sense. If I call Her she still answers but She has told me that “the war is over” and I am no longer in need of Her “services”. She was most kind about it and I still care for Her deeply. It feels like a Mother and chick scenario, I’m being booted out of the nest after 15 years. While I was wallowing…well I suppose I was more pondering…this warm sense of love came over me and I realized the Lady had come to call. Freyja.

She’s not exactly what I expected. I had read so much about Her being a love Goddess and akin to Aphrodite. Physical beauty has never been something I’ve focused on overly much. She’s since said to me “Why can’t you be beautiful and strong?” and has chided me gently on practicing what I preach when it comes to beauty, the physical is not the only component.

So I must say goodbye to yet another entrenched part of my life and welcome a new part. She has been gentle with me and kind. I am very fond of Her already.

Hail to Our Lady.

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A Prayer of Acceptance and Surrender

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In sitting down with myself the past few days, I find myself filled with fear. Now that I’m settled physically, and am no longer leading a nomadic life, I can allow myself to feel that fear. Hopefully in feeling it I will also be able to release it, and move on to a happier life that my Lady has promised me. “So, this change is a good thing, then?” I asked her before I left. “That depends entirely on you,” She replied. That’s a very scary answer to hear, when I’ve spent so much of my time relying on her–first in my program, and then as I worked my way back into the Heathen community from which I had temporarily withdrawn.

Still, my experience in recovery points to two solutions: Do the footwork, and rely on Her. Do the footwork, and rely on Her. And do the footwork. And rely on Her. So…

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On being a Freya priestess: Dealing with the aftereffects of a meeting with Freya

There will be a Freya post but this comes first.

Himself will be coming home soon. Sometime around the Solstice. My SisterWife and I have talked about it and get the same impression. As excited as I am to have Him home soon I’m also scared and anxious. When He was here last it was the most direct my connection I’ve had to date. My reaction is pretty much the same as what is described here. As has been the way of things for the last year or so, there was this timely post that reassures me. I’m still scared though because I know He will have to go again. When He does it is like the worst subdrop ever.

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Priestess processing: why Freya makes people cry, and how to handle it.

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Offerings for the Waters

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I had these gourds and mini pumpkins left over from Hunt season. I know it’s technically not done yet but these fruits were and needed to be gotten rid of while they were still good enough to BE an offering. Luckily enough I worked down by the Coquitlam River today and had the chance to toss them into the underbrush and into the river as I went. Totally didn’t plan it but pretty much the same thing happened after Noumenia last month. I’m guessing the Higher Ups and my Spirits are pleased with my new practices. It’s nothing fancy. On Hecate Deipnon I clean the shrines. Noumenia involves family and food. This month I went out to Surrey to spend time with my parents, Maternal Aunt and Uncle and my brother and his wife and kids. A tree lighting celebration. Heard a great new local band which was awesome too.

*If all the pictures uploaded correctly they go backwards from today chronologically.

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